Last night I could not sleep. I was awake until after 4 a.m.....and tonight, looks like a repeat preformance. I did not sleep during the day but right after dinner, I fell sound asleep watching tv.....not good because now it is almost 1 a.m. and I am wide awake.

It as a joyous day, however, because at 8:15 in the morning, I got a phone call from Mesut telling me to go onto MSN and we were able to spend about 45 min on cam before he lost connection. He informed me that words are hollow, but he sees my face, my eyes, my smile and he sees my heart and knows my love for him. I feel the same way. He is so wonderful. The waiting to be with him is unbearable at times but so worth it to get a quick phone call, text or Thank you God, a session online where I can see those beautiful blue eyes and his warm loving smile. Our love spans 6.5 yrs with only seeing him in person twice, totalling 20 days, but with the passage of time, God has blessed us with a love so strong it is unbelievable. I sometimes doubt when I do not hear from him because he cannot get a connection or runs out of cell minutes, but I know his love is true, and I know mine is holy and faithful for God and for him. Thank you God for a beautiful love. I am truly a blessed woman. This man, one I never expected to love, is my life, my heart, and my support. I know for this love to keep growing over 6 yrs with limited time together, it is from God and HE will keep it growing stronger and in His timing, Mesut and I will be together. God help that day be soon. We need a miracle from God himself!!!! Thank you God for this beautiful man and the love he holds in his heart for me.